Holy Indifference

[Denise]

Does it matter what the Will of God is for you? That may sound like a strange question at first. But think about it. Does it matter what God wills of you? What if He were to call you to constant work? Or what if He were to call you to a restful repose? Or what if He were to fill you with delight? Or remove all delight from your soul? Or call you to be extolled and honored in the sight of many? Or draw you into the desert of solitude and hiddenness?

The truth is that it matters not what God’s call is in our lives, it only matters that He calls. We must strive for a holy indifference in our lives. A “holyâ€￾ indifference is not indifference to God and His Will; rather, a holy indifference is a detachment to all preferences regarding what the Lord asks of us. We must be ready for all but we must be willing to receive nothing. The goal is to be ready for God and His Will, whatever it may be (See Diary #952).

[Johnna]

I so need to live this! I'm trying to have a holy indifference to whether or not my son is called to priesthood. Truth is, as much as I totally adore Carly, it is hard for me to hear my son say he no longer feels a call. I truly wanted him to be a priest and it's all I could see.

[Denise]

How old is your son now?

[Johnna]

15. Ever since I became Catholic, I've wanted a son that would become a priest. He's my eldest son, so the desire turned towards him. His dating Carly has been both holy and absolutely what he needs right now.